Yesterday I drove to Sag Harbor. As I turned onto the sun-drenched blue stretch of Long Beach, I could see a corner of my friend Janine Veto’s old street and I started thinking about the days when I used to drive out to teach at Southampton College with Baby Eyrna in back, in her tiny car seat. We’d stay with Janine because my mother was so drunk I couldn’t safely leave Eyrna with her.
Sun in the sky you know how I feel
Breeze driftin’ on by you know how I feel”It’s a new dawn
It’s a new day
It’s a new life
And I’m feeling good”Fish in the sea you know how I feel
River running free you know how I feel
Blossom on the tree you know how I feel”Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don’t you know
Butterflies all havin’ fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
That’s what I mean”And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me”Stars when you shine you know how I feel
Scent of the pine you know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel”
It was as if I’d heard a message from the Master Creator himself. When there is nothing left to do but go on, you go on. And every day, it is possible to change one’s attitude and approach to loss. Freedom is mine. Though, I haven’t quite learned how to sleep in peace when day is done.
Thank you, Nina Simone.